5 months more.

Walking aimlessly in circles, stuck in the same place once again. I know where I should be, where I need to be but how do I get there? Caught between what is right for everyone and what is right for me, I am still in the waiting as I search for a way out. Every corner is scrutinized for some secret lever that would open up an uncharted passage. An undiscovered path I have yet to take. Sure, it's dangerous and this vision that I have of my future is hazy but I tell myself that it is all part of the adventure. I am certain that this path is meant for me to take on whether it is right or wrong. The biggest mistake I can ever make is playing it safe. 

It is a leap of faith involving no safety net. I would be crossing a vast ocean in months time to start an exciting chapter, a new part of my life that will finally take its course. This journey is a story that's waiting to happen. Full of mistakes and tests that will make me and break me. I am ready for a life that will not be easy as I enter a whole new world of responsibilities and obligations. Of course, the misadventures in the midst of the adventures are bound to happen. And that's how I would step into the adult world. With a child-like faith and a fresh yet different perspective, I'll take on life's challenges and never ever forget to have fun. Laugh at myself and be silly once in awhile. I suppose, in a way, I would not be your average grown up because in my heart, I don't think I'll ever grow up. 

Going back to the same place I've been, I relish this moment that will soon become a blur. A memory that I can hold on to until it is boxed away, out of sight. For now, I reflect on today for it is a precious gift that is often taken for granted. I am too much of a dreamer to not plan and ready myself for what I cannot avoid. Soon and very soon, I shall leave the comforts and safety of my nest of a home. 

I only have 5 months more.