Monday, September 22, 2014

In the Wee Small Hours

Today is Monday and for the first time in forever, I am up before the sun rises for no apparent reason. I have no lecture today. I have no duty this week. However, I should be working on my thesis like I told myself that I would. Oh, well. My heart is going through an outpouring, therefore here I am writing this post and I'll see where this goes because I have the biggest tendency to go on random tangents leading to incoherent babbling. So, bear with me if you have been following me on this blog and reading all my posts. I notice from looking at all my posts as a whole, it's indeed all over the place. That's because I am unsure what to make of this blogspot as of now and then there's also the factor of not knowing who reads this.

Anyways, the real reason I am writing this is to share with you about an amazing, awesome, wonderful God that I know and love. So, setting everything about school aside, I need to get this out for my own sake and possibly for those who need this or just want to catch up with what exactly is going on with my life on a spiritual level. I have so much notes typed on my phone, I was wondering when I will ever get around to talking about them individually here.

Grace. It is amazing and sweet sounding. This word has taken hold of my heart as I think about it again and again. It saves me while I am so undeserving. I cannot stress enough how refreshing grace is!

His Grace Changes Everything.

This song could not be any more true to my life at this moment in time because God did something to me last week that definitely changed everything. From miraculously postponing my thesis defense 1 week later to giving me time to focus on my thesis. I actually have no clue how why or when but changing the defense date pushed me to determination that I can finish this with excellence, all for the glory of my Father. I am boldly claiming it whether we reach our goal grade or not because I want to finish this knowing I did my utmost best with God as my source of strength. There is victory no matter what the outcome is. Just several days prior to that date change, I was running on low morale and my mind was not entirely focused on meeting the deadline because a little voice in my head kept saying, "too much to do, not enough time." And that was just one of many I thought to myself. All the worry did not do anything to make the productivity any faster. And then there was grace that came to save the day. I honestly was not expecting God to move on such perfect timing. That's when you know it's all God when events in your life is orchestrated in such a way that's too much for human comprehension. It is not coincidence!

So just imagine yourself dying then you're miraculously brought back to life with 10 more years to live as opposed to 1 month to live. When you have been saved by a life-threatening condition, doesn't that make you want to jump up and down? Doesn't that make you want to rejoice and shout praises to God? Knowing that the only reason you're alive today is all because of the One who saved you. God was abundantly gracious enough to have saved me and my group mates from the jaws of life. (Foreals, this thesis is do or die for my nursing student career) This great news motivated me to go the extra 10 miles giving everything I have for this thesis because my group and I have 1 extra week. So no time shall be wasted on anything else! I will have no excuse because God is a God of second chances. (and third, fourth and fifth chances!) This is all because of His overflowing grace that I do not deserve.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--
Ephesians 2:8

That is why I can lift my head towards heaven singing songs of praise with a smile on my face. It was such an amazing feeling to just worship Him on that beautiful Sunday morning after the storm. I was no longer dreading the coming week but rejoicing from what God did just days before Sunday.

Lord, can I please have more moments like this with You?

"So we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are passing away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are preparing for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4