Saturday, October 11, 2014

The Value of Friendship

Throughout the first day of my exams, I had a heavy heart and was unsure as to why I felt that way. By the time I reached the door of my unit, I was in tears. I felt broken and just confused with what happened earlier in the week. My tears turned into cries then eventually into uncontrollable sobs. The reason for grieving is not as important as what I want to share with you here.

God has impeccable timing because He held everything together for me and helped me brave my exams until I got home (without Him, I think I would have been crying in the middle of my exams). When I entered my place, I saw that my friend left notes and her cupcake for me, and guess what? that made me cry even more! (I am such a crybaby!) I love how God uses people in my life to speak to me and shows His love for me even if it's in the smallest way, I greatly appreciate those moments.

My friend wrote me a letter that reads:

           You are a fighter! A warrior princess says the Lord. "Prepare the horse for the day of battle." The things you are experiencing now are meant to get you ready to fight! You'll be facing a lot of great battles but remember that it is not the horse or sword that will hold you up and deliver you on the day of trouble but the Lord Jesus Christ!

          Call upon Him and shout His name! Declare your identity in Christ in front of your enemies! Like David said in Psalms 23, "You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies!" While the enemies try to distract you, you just "dine with Jesus!" Fellowship with Him. Enjoy His presence! He loves you ETERNALLY, not just "to the moon and back." lol

And it didn't stop there. She really gave me a surprise! And this was on her birthday too!

Upper right: she recently learned what bae actually means. Lower left: a representation of my friend's birthday from last year and this year... there's still a balloon like last year! Lower right: she left around 5 of these post-it notes around my place!



It is such a blessing to have friends who push you closer to God and I believe relationships like that are important to have. The value of friendship is just as important as that of family and much greater than any value we put on love relationships with boyfriends or girlfriends, especially when Jesus is at the center. Sometimes, I might have every reason to feel bitter towards someone or jealous and picking sides, talking behind their backs, but Jesus removes all of that. Each day He gradually changes my heart and allows me to forgive and love others despite what I should feel and even if it doesn't make sense. I value friendship so much to let any outside force break it, because I wouldn't want to lose a friend over little drama and tensions that happen. His love makes me want to love others and just share it! Soon enough, you will forget yourself meaning that it was never about you all along. You will see that there is a greater, bigger picture and God is doing something behind the scenes. It's more than about your life and how you personally feel but about God and other people who are strategically placed in your life. And all you want to do is be a part of what God is doing just to give Him the glory. There is so much more to life than the temporary things of this world.

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 2:3-5

That was what my friend reminded me that day when I came home: the beauty of friendships and His love that conquers all. 

Friday, October 3, 2014

All Along (Psalm 51:12)

You were the One I've been waiting for. The Love of my heart's desire, the Joy of my salvation. Why did I have to wait when You were waiting for me all along? You are the One true Love that is perfect and abounding that has unfailingly won my fickle heart over and over. Yet, You still love me despite the countless times I have ran away looking for love in the wrong places, seeking satisfaction in the things of this temporary world. When in fact, happiness was not the need for it was the joy I have desired all along. It can never be found anywhere or in anything of this world but in the Giver of joy Himself. It is when I take delight in my Father and Savior that He restores to me the joy of my salvation. I carry on as I fervently and earnestly seek You above all else with no ulterior motive for my heart knows that it longs for the eternal. As I run to You, there my heart will be pressing on through barriers that hold me to keep me away from You. And when I fall, let it be in the arms of Your love that carries me as a father cradles his daughter to sleep.

You have won the victory in each of my battles in every season. All this time, it was never with my own strength alone but by Your power that pulled me through trials and temptations. I look to the One who is jealous for me and lavishly loves His daughter. I smile from ear to ear at the thought of just how much my Father loves me. I lift my hands as an act of surrender that yearns for His embrace. I want nothing more than the joy and the spirit of freedom.

Every day may You ever be the constant that reminds me that it is Your love. Each moment may You be in the quiet places I find myself in.

Tonight, I was beautifully reminded that it was You all along.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. (Ps. 51:12)

Monday, September 22, 2014

In the Wee Small Hours

Today is Monday and for the first time in forever, I am up before the sun rises for no apparent reason. I have no lecture today. I have no duty this week. However, I should be working on my thesis like I told myself that I would. Oh, well. My heart is going through an outpouring, therefore here I am writing this post and I'll see where this goes because I have the biggest tendency to go on random tangents leading to incoherent babbling. So, bear with me if you have been following me on this blog and reading all my posts. I notice from looking at all my posts as a whole, it's indeed all over the place. That's because I am unsure what to make of this blogspot as of now and then there's also the factor of not knowing who reads this.

Anyways, the real reason I am writing this is to share with you about an amazing, awesome, wonderful God that I know and love. So, setting everything about school aside, I need to get this out for my own sake and possibly for those who need this or just want to catch up with what exactly is going on with my life on a spiritual level. I have so much notes typed on my phone, I was wondering when I will ever get around to talking about them individually here.

Grace. It is amazing and sweet sounding. This word has taken hold of my heart as I think about it again and again. It saves me while I am so undeserving. I cannot stress enough how refreshing grace is!

His Grace Changes Everything.

This song could not be any more true to my life at this moment in time because God did something to me last week that definitely changed everything. From miraculously postponing my thesis defense 1 week later to giving me time to focus on my thesis. I actually have no clue how why or when but changing the defense date pushed me to determination that I can finish this with excellence, all for the glory of my Father. I am boldly claiming it whether we reach our goal grade or not because I want to finish this knowing I did my utmost best with God as my source of strength. There is victory no matter what the outcome is. Just several days prior to that date change, I was running on low morale and my mind was not entirely focused on meeting the deadline because a little voice in my head kept saying, "too much to do, not enough time." And that was just one of many I thought to myself. All the worry did not do anything to make the productivity any faster. And then there was grace that came to save the day. I honestly was not expecting God to move on such perfect timing. That's when you know it's all God when events in your life is orchestrated in such a way that's too much for human comprehension. It is not coincidence!

So just imagine yourself dying then you're miraculously brought back to life with 10 more years to live as opposed to 1 month to live. When you have been saved by a life-threatening condition, doesn't that make you want to jump up and down? Doesn't that make you want to rejoice and shout praises to God? Knowing that the only reason you're alive today is all because of the One who saved you. God was abundantly gracious enough to have saved me and my group mates from the jaws of life. (Foreals, this thesis is do or die for my nursing student career) This great news motivated me to go the extra 10 miles giving everything I have for this thesis because my group and I have 1 extra week. So no time shall be wasted on anything else! I will have no excuse because God is a God of second chances. (and third, fourth and fifth chances!) This is all because of His overflowing grace that I do not deserve.

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--
Ephesians 2:8

That is why I can lift my head towards heaven singing songs of praise with a smile on my face. It was such an amazing feeling to just worship Him on that beautiful Sunday morning after the storm. I was no longer dreading the coming week but rejoicing from what God did just days before Sunday.

Lord, can I please have more moments like this with You?

"So we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are passing away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are preparing for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4

Friday, September 19, 2014

"Message in a Bottle"

There you are standing before me as your gaze holds the truth that pierces through the windows to my soul. Not a word was uttered for it was made perfectly clear from the melodies of your heart that sang to mine. It was not too long ago when you tossed your message in a bottle out into the vast ocean in hopes of finding its way to me. Inside, it contained feelings of hope, love and uncertainty. And now that was what I presented in my hand. I kept the bottle as a secret from you until the moment came for me to reveal what I had which was yours. That moment is now as I am standing before you with my heart in my hand along with your message in a bottle telling you that those feelings of hope, love and uncertainty are also mine.

No words were spoken from that moment on.

For I woke up to find
That it was all just a dream.

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

second excerpt

As far as the eye can see, an although seemingly frightening journey is an action-packed adventure worth taking and waiting to happen. Because if your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough, right? The longer they are deferred, the bigger, louder and scarier it becomes. With much excitement and anticipation, I tightly hold on to the grains of time in the hourglass that gradually sinks deeper. The tighter I grasp, the more easily time slips through my fingers. Allowing the minutes and hours to pass fleetingly, I take them for granted. Then at that moment, I look expectantly towards heaven and pray for direction that leads me to the heart of my dreams. For my soul longs for the day of fulfillment as well as joy in the Everlasting. I yearn for the love of a lifetime as I seek for the Love of eternity. As I wait, I stand patiently in silence and there I was with the answer. "Wait." These grains of sand is what I have as I am bounded by time. These lasting minutes and hours are not to be wasted but to make the most of them and live each day to the fullest. How precious and delicate each second, each grain that falls from the palms of your hands when kept open facing infinity. As the peace and assurance flow through me, I release my tight grasp and let it gradually fall deep below my feet. And in perfect time, I will no longer wait because my dreams will be reality.

I avert my eyes to a journey set before me going towards a destination. For I no longer wait to live out an adventure of a lifetime.

Monday, September 1, 2014

first excerpt

I look beyond what is within my reach to see a vision of a dream that awaits for me. It is a dream that is many moons away that I can barely make out what it is exactly. I just know that it is there and that I must go after it somehow. But in the meantime, I am here not knowing what each day will bring for I am on a ship that never runs a smooth course. Around me, I see figures and bodies go forth in this monotonous routine that seems to never end. I think to myself, "there has to be more to life than this." Everything surrounding me is plain, black and white with no color in sight as if there is no hope for changing course. The path laid out before me is the way to go, I am told. It's what I should do. It's the right thing to do. But setting aside the voices and whispers, what does my Father say? What does my heart say? At this moment in time, I know well enough that the answers will not appear out of thin air with a snap of my fingers. Life never really works that way. However, there is one thing I am certain of and it's this: there is so much more to this life and with each passing day my dreams are getting bigger for my heart to bear. They will soon come to life in its proper time. And the thing is I am not entirely sure what those dreams are. I will surely find out once I take that bold step out of my bubble in this ocean of life. I put my trust in a God who desires me and loves me as I am but loves me too much for me to stay the same. It's frightening but it's well worth the journey.

I look beyond what is within my reach to see a life that was meant for me.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

My Emerald City

no longer driven, losing vision
arm stretched out trying to find
a place for my peace of mind
going nowhere fast
how much longer will this last?

heart growing cold, needing a hand to hold
eyes cried out from the love lost
oh, what an unworthy cause
going nowhere fast
how much longer will this last?

Two steps forward, three steps back
Back to the drawing board
Where do I lack
what more can I afford
For time and space is all I need
To create for my soul to feed

Dreams on hold, needless to say
Return I shall to pursue one day
Right or wrong, forward and back
Faith and confidence, what I lack
Around and around I go
going nowhere fast
how much longer will this last?

Big dreams with a bigger reality
that is yet to unfold
Eyes shut tight, feet on the ground
Heels clicked thrice, be bold!
If I may fall
Let it be on my bed of dreams
Waking up to a place 
where I long to be

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Fearfully & Wonderfully

It hurts to hear what others say about me. They see my imperfections, my mistakes..

But what hurts me even more is when I see others who I care about seem to have it all together but I can see beneath the surface of it all. It pains me that they place their identity in the ephemeral or in people.

I am writing this for the ones I care about as well as for myself because this is a constant battle. For the ladies, we like to compete with each other when the real enemy is actually ourselves. There are these little voices in our minds that whisper to us that we are not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough and the list goes on. At some point, there may be better days where you actually feel good about yourself but for the wrong reasons.

Instead of giving the attention to yourself, why not look up to the One who is constant and divine? He is perfect and infinitely beautiful. His joy is overflowing and He is the best friend you can ever have.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

Whatever anyone else thinks of you or tells you, don't let it get to your head. The most important thing to remember is you. are. LOVED. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, there is a God who is in pursuit of YOU.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made

You are a precious gem stone and a daughter of a King. You are beautiful and mean the entire universe to the One who created YOU. Remember that is what's really important... because nothing on this earth can ever truly satisfy and make you whole.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made

It was never really the outward appearance that made Him love you. He will love you no matter what you look like! Even if you wake up like Beyonce! He looks at the most precious, fragile thing inside you. Your heart is all that He is after.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made

Say that to yourself over and over again.
Because every day is a battle with those little voices in your head
Every day you have to constantly remind yourself
that you are beautiful because He is beautiful.
Your identity was never in anything or anyone of this world.
Your identity is in Christ.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well. 
Psalm 139:14

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Wonder as I Wander.

Take two steps forward, and three steps back.
Time escapes me as I am waiting.
I dream, and I dream, then wonder
Why, where and how?

keep my eyes fixed on Your glory
As I wander never will You leave me
I sing from the top of my lungs
from the depths of my heart
with everything that I am

My soul rests in the knowing
that I am saved
rescued from the snares of the enemy
redeemed by the power of Your blood
renewed by the waters of Your grace


Thursday, July 31, 2014

All of my life, in every season.

Worship is everything to me and I believe every experience I've ever had with worship was different. Long before I even knew there was such a thing, I first fell in love with music and singing. I wouldn't even be the person that I am today if my mom didn't push me to take piano lessons and eventually, voice lessons. 

I conquered my shyness and overcame many obstacles from then on. Then, there came the lowest point I've ever been in my life to the point where I started to doubt God's existence. I became lost and so confused with so many things at that time, my mom didn't know what to do. But, the only thing she did do was turn to God and surrendered her life to Christ... as well as mine. With that big leap of faith (and up until this day I cannot explain how it happened), the confusion, doubt, and the emotional stress was removed. My mind was renewed and the voice of God rang loud when I first experienced worship.

In the beginning, as I wasn't even saved yet, I loved the songs and just singing them. I joined the church choir and middle school choir not knowing what I was even doing. All I wanted to do was just sing. I wanted to be like the high school kids leading worship up on stage and that was what drew me in... I wanted to worship. I remember how my 7th grade self would feel insecure to even lift a hand up during weekly chapels. Looking back to before I accepted Christ as my Savior as well as the early years of my walk with God, it was just performance. I relied on my talent and my singing was for the sake of singing. 

Fast forward to the end of high school when I started to lead worship in a small church my family was in. Worship became a little more personal than it did before. And each of the worship experiences I had throughout my walk with God were different. There were times where I would find myself not in the right place with God when I worship. Sometimes, I would feel upset on a Sunday morning or I wouldn't even feel alive. How would I encourage the congregation to worship God if I'm in a spiritual drought? Heck, there were days when I would say, "I don't feel like leading worship. I'm tired." I've been there especially when I led every Sunday for such a time. 


Today, I still sing and volunteer to worship on Sundays at a church here in the Philippines. I praise God for the worship leaders who have shown me what worship really is. It was never just singing on Sundays. It was never just the talent or the qualification. It's about God. For the first time in a few years just recently, I led worship for our org's general assembly. Prior to that, I thought to myself, "I want this worship experience to be new and to be all for the glory of God." I wanted it to be sincere and joyful. There were even little voices in my head saying I wasn't qualified or I wasn't fit to lead people to worship. However, I was called.

I was not called for my qualifications. 
I was qualified because I was called.

On July 12, 2014, God did an amazing thing that day. God knew that I wasn't capable to lead a group of people into worship... especially when I don't surrender everything to Him.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)

By the amazing grace of God, I had this overwhelming gladness in my heart that I could not contain. That was when I knew that I was no longer leading the worship. I felt so free! In those moments that I felt weak or inadequate, God just took over. I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses because I know that my God will lead me.

A declaration that I will make for my life: I can do anything through His strength for His power is made perfect in my weakness!

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

It was grace that brought me here and it is grace that will carry me on.


God Wants Your List

Do you remember the story about the man who was bitten by the dog? When he learned the dog had rabies, he began making a list. The doctor told him there was no need to make a will, that rabies could be cured. "Oh, I'm not making a will," he replied. "I'm making a list of all the people I want to bite."

Couldn't we all make such a list? You've already learned, haven't you, that friends aren't always friendly? Neighbors aren't always neighborly? Some workers never work, and some bosses are always bossy?

You've already learned, haven't you, that a promise made is not always a promise kept? Even though they said "yes" on the altar, they may say "no" in the marriage.

You've already learned, haven't you, that we tend to fight back? To keep lists and snarl lips and growl at people we don't like?

God wants your list. He wants you to leave the list at the cross.

Love does not keep a record of wrongs.
1 Corinthians 13:5 (TEV)

Monday, July 28, 2014

My Thoughts on Begin Again.


1. I vow to never ever give up on music or live with the regret that I didn't try.

2. All of it reminded me of him.

3. My heart never forgot no matter how many times I've suppressed the feeling.

4. Music, I am forever in love with you.

5. I have a dual headphone adapter so I can listen with both ears with my future significant other.

6. On one of our dates, we will walk around the streets of New York or maybe just LA listening to each other's playlists without saying a word... Just singing. and maybe some dancing.

7. Also, we must slow dance to the music we will be listening to with both our headphones

8. Future boyfriend/husband will show me the ways of songwriting.

9. I am now without a shadow of a doubt, convinced that most songs for the soul are organically written. All of the greatest songs in history started out with just a guitar or a piano.

10. I CRIED. And this usually happens because something just spoke to my soul and I really related to the movie somehow. When it's something I'm going through or have experienced, that's when I get emotional. Now I know why I didn't cry during Fault in Our Stars.

11. I want to listen to music with you and just talk about music to no end.

12. Do I ever even cross your mind at all? I can't help but wonder and maybe I'll never stop wondering.

13. Are any of your songs about me?? Or am I just going cray? And even if they are, I wouldn't believe it because who would write songs about me??

14. This is the 2nd time I cried for a movie that I watched by myself in a theater... Except now it's for a different reason and a different guy

15. Adam Levine was perfect and Lost Stars belongs in my playlist.

16. Keira Knightly was a beauty with such class. At first I was questioning whether she could sing or not but while watching the movie, I didn't even care because that wasn't the point of the story. Her voice was honest and her own. She fit so well with the whole story. And can we just take a moment to just admire her sense of fashion??

17. There were many take homes from this film that touched on what music is all about, the way a lady should dress and of course relationships.

18. However, one thing that I will not take home is the profanity.

19. Today, I was glad with how things turned out, otherwise I wouldn't have watched the movie.

20. I am looking forward to watching another movie starring Keira Knightly! LAGGIES.

--Edit--

21. Listening to the soundtrack makes me go through the movie in my head!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Let your life for Christ be more than just a status update.

My relationship with God should not be limited to posting a bible verse on twitter or facebook. I can do all those things to show how "Christian" I am but what about outside the social media?

I have so much quiet time but what am I doing with the majority of that free time? And when I do have my devotional with God, I get uplifted that I have to tweet about it. For once, I just want that time to be with just God and not with social media. Don't get me wrong, expressing your thoughts and opinions to the world is great if it's beneficial and positive. However, if the sharing is only on the internet and not even when you're around people, something isn't right. It is so easy to say whatever we want to say be it positive or negative because we are hiding behind a screen. It's liberating to get something that you've been keeping to yourself out there in the open and no one can see your face.

We like to bash on the haters for making the meanest, rudest comments to other people but look at the other side of the spectrum. Speaking a lot of good and inspiration to others... does it stop there? Posting uplifting quotes and bible verses doesn't make us any better than those who spread a lot of hate towards others.

I'm not saying all these things to condemn you but to really check yourself... ask yourself does your life reflect Jesus? Where is your heart? We can easily create an ideal image on the internet for everyone to see but sometimes, it isn't a reality. Sometimes it becomes a mask because what we post does not reveal who we really are. I believe, yes, there are rules as to what to post and what not to post (internet etiquette) but be true to yourself when you're around actual people. There is no need to share your entire life on the world wide web... that's why God has placed certain people in our lives. We can share our lives with those who are always there for you. Those who know who you really are.

I'm not in favor with posting my thoughts about God as much as possible because I want my life to actually reflect that. I don't want my twitter, instagram or facebook account to show that my life is for God. Even if it did, I would feel as if it's a lie. I'm still human and I fail like ten times a day and I'm not always jumping and praising God for His goodness and grace. I don't want to show off the works I am doing for my God. I can't project what my "ideal" life is like. I believe that's something we should do for ourselves. Every day we should read the bible and speak that to our lives instead of always sharing to everyone. Read the word, then actually live it out. Not tweeting about it. Not posting a new status about it. Because that isn't living it out at all. It's merely words without any action.

I don't know who even reads my blog (since I just made a new one) but I don't really share this blog on any other social network. This is for whoever comes across this post and would even care to read it.

This is more like a journal as of now although I haven't been very good at updating this as much as I should... oh well. It is what it is. I've been meaning to write this post on this specific topic for awhile for it has been on my heart.

Until next post!

Friday, April 25, 2014

Time of Devotion

I can just feel it in my bones. I just know that my life will take a turn somewhere that will alter my future forever. It's scary yet at the same time, it's exciting.

As each passing day draws closer to another end of another chapter, God has impressed on my heart His calling, if you will. I pray that my desires are in line with His will in my life, what He wants for me.

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices! Psalm 37:4-7

One thing is certain: if I ever walk down a path that takes me further from God, I am to stop whatever it is I am doing and run straight back to Him. I will make plenty of mistakes but the utmost important thing is that I learn from it and make things right. I may fall seven times, but I'll get back up eight times.

God has shown me that I have nothing to fear.
Whatever trials and situations I get myself into, it is only temporary.

the key to all this?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

TRUST. I probably won't understand everything that goes on in my life but I put my trust in the One who has it all figured out for me. I put my trust in the One who saved my life. I put my complete trust in the One who has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams.

My heart is the most fickle thing in my body. A lot of the time it fails... I love with condition and at times out of selfishness. The list goes on. The only love that I can ever depend on is of Christ. He gave His love without asking for anything in return... He only asks for my life to be for Him. I desire to learn to love God without it being a relationship based on transaction. Meaning, I am not seeking for His blessings but I seek Him.

Monday, January 20, 2014

A World Without Sin

Then wolves will live in peace with lambs,
and leopards will lie down to rest with goats.
Isaiah 11:6

Can you imagine a world minus sin? Have you done anything recently because of sin?

          At the very lease, you've complained. You've worried. You've grumbled. You've hoarded when you should have shared. You've turned away when you should have helped...

          Because of sin, you've snapped at the ones you love and argued with the ones you cherish. You have felt ashamed, guilty, bitter. 

          Sin has sired a thousand heartaches and broken a million can be traced back to sin. Your mistrust can be traced back to sin. Bigotry, robbery, adultery-- all because of sin. But in heaven, all of this will end.

Can you imagine a world without sin? If so, you can imagine heaven.
When Christ Comes
Grace for the Moment
Max Lucado

Think of some of the noisy distractions in your life. What do you do to give God your quiet attention?

Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and many more apps on my phone especially when I have the wifi turned on. My phone is practically the biggest distraction right now that's keeping me away from my devotions. And that's been happening one too many times lately. Second, would be music... that's for a "noisy" distraction if you want to think in literal terms. 

So this morning, I did something to snap myself out of these distractions. I think the first thing that must happen is to identify that what you're doing is wrong. As in, "I shouldn't be on Instagram first thing in the morning!" or whenever there is a heavy burden in my heart, I turn to God and just surrender it in devotions. Once devotions come to my mind, I stop whatever I am doing, close all my iPhone apps, stop whatever I was thinking about and just DO. I usually go through this whole thought process before I even begin to act on something. With today being a Monday, what better way to start this day, this week with God?? This entire weekend (actually even from last week) has been full of distractions. Mainly in my head when I get lost in thought. With God's grace, I was able to open up my morning devotions and make this new blog:) and... it's private. for now, until someone randomly stumbles upon it. but chances are, I wouldn't know the person whoever is reading this.

I shall train myself to blog my devotions right here. Whatever I may be thinking despite the ugly run-on sentences I'll be making. As busy I may be, I'll make time for God.